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Tuesday, 20 January 2009

  • Save me please...

    So Cold....

    The final chapter of army has finally been reached.. The days of it has finally come to an end.. After slogging for 2 years.. Its finally ending.. Yet, empty feelings still pound at my heart, demanding a release... What is the cause of it... I really can't say..

    Going through some bad times in life... Somehow, I juz need to fins something to release me.. But I can't find a way to do it.. I really can't... Every night, every day, this wave of uneasiness just sweeps into my life.. Making it hard to breathe and think... Times when i looked towards my bad habits to give me a respite did not help... Drinking was juz a waste of resources and  drunkness.. Why is it that my heart feels unanswered by life itself? What is the cause of all these...

    I just wan this feelings to disappear.. To be released from their burdens...The future holds great uncertainty for me.. The pressure is slowly mounting up on me.. Its time for my generation to step up and soon take control of our own lives.. No more depending on others, no more mistakes to be made.. Its juz that straight narrow, treacherous road that we muz tip toe jus to stay on it...

    Just watched an anime called CODE GEAUSS.. All about this guy, who wanted to make a world full of tumoil, into a better world.. But in order to do so, he has too conquer the whole whole, so as to unite all hatred against him, and letting his best friend kill him, for the sake of the greater good in the world.. Well, the world did change for the better, whilst the main character, ended up the unwelcomed and hated saviour... I guess i can understand his vision and his will.. BUt it is too much too bear for me... The fate of my own life lies on my shoulder and already I m feeling the burden on me...

    I dunno how i can save myself from falling further into oblivion.. EMO is too minor a word to be used in regarding me, but too serious a word to cause great problems.. I guess I really do have many masks.. Guesss it has become a permanent feature on me that I dunno, who is the real me..

    Can Anyone Save Me? Am I The Only One Left? 

Thursday, 01 January 2009

  • Manical Sympathy..

    Punching Resolutions with a new Solution..

    Happy New yr to all!! LOlx... ITs like time for us to set our New Year Resolution and see if we are able to keep it for the whole of next year... ACtually, its juz something that brings out the challenge in us I guess.. Trying not to do so many stuff in the next 365 days... LOLX>.. ABit the Hard nIa..

    My NEw yr resolutions... Hmmz LEts see..

    1. To reduce the limit has to how many bad habits i can have in my life..
    2. Forget all the bad grudges I had before ( if I had any )
    3. Forge the path towards my achievements in the future by starting from Feb onwards..
    4. Scrimp and save..

    Alrighty.. This are my resoultions... now lets see which one of them that i will not BREAK.. HAHAHz...

    Welcoming the new year was not so much of a difference like last year for me i guess... Only that there were more ppl to enjoy it with? BUnch of my JC frens came over my place.. bought some bottles of alcohol to drink.. HAnged arnd, talked alot... Made me feel that soon, I am goin to have that extra bit of responsibility to handle in the near future...

    Writing all these down made me realise that this blog has become somewhat of a memento for me... looking back at the past blogs, growing stronger and weaker each passing entry... IT seems to have some use in the passage of time...

    Stilll.. I juz hope that whoever is reading this are able to connect with me on a same level as to wad i m saying or at least understand..

    LEaving and signing out to enjoy some time i have left before i finally reach the peak that i dread of scaling without a support in hand.. WISHING ALL HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

    PS: TO all my JC, Secondary, and even my army platoon mates that I usually hang arnd with.. I wish to say thank youz...

Wednesday, 24 December 2008

  • Stranger to Danger..

    Waiting for the Impossible...

    Hey... Once again blogging... Hahaz... Finally, some time to myself... Hehz... Pitiful, since it is Xmas Eve and that I might be spending the night at home... LOlx... Can't believe my other days were packed but yet on Xmas Eve it seems like I got almost nothing to do... Dammz...

    Sunday Did guard duty in camp and it was super boring... no one called, Nothing interesting happend unless u coujnt my CSM appearing for a few minutes to grab his stuff something to talk about.. Lolx... Other than that I think i Spend most of the day snoozing and watching Tv... Cant believe that duty could get as boring as that... Luckily I have no more other duties... There was this issue in camp that caused my platoon to do some last min guard duty in camp and that really sucks... Cos everyone is on leave but yet they still did not tell us untill the last min... i mean cmon... U guys are the army.. Decisive force anyone??? zzzz

    Monday I went clubbing with my frens at Zouk... It was an underage party and it was something to be really disappointed abt... Although the place was chocked full to the max, Stilll it definetely needs some crowd control in there... KIDS>... Can't believe they are so naturally CHILDISH.. Ok, only 18 and abv were allowed to drink and those below had no alcohlic beverages allowed for them.. But yet, when I entered the dance floor, there was this major fight involving ALOT of youngsters... Startled me for a sec.. CAn't believe that they could so easily lose their temper and start fighting.. I mean if u were under the influence of alcohol i can get by it but please, too much COKE can cause a fight???

    After that since i was driving I had to send my frens back... Dammm... All of them like stayed far away from each other... Including ME... Had to travel the whole Spore i guess... Never gonna do that again.. Next time they wanna ride i make sure i will juz drp them off at one spot so that they can go back themselves... Unless I myself am drunk and I dunno wad I m doin and u are capable of confusing me to driving u back,, heh u are on ur own soonz pal..

    Alrighty then... now is the time whereby i blog off and maybe start to find something to do... Find some buddies or maybe juz do SOMETHING... Ciaoz...

Saturday, 20 December 2008

  • Past, Present, Future..

    Unchangeable, unavoidable...

    LOlx... Long time no blog already.. It's now the holiday season for all!! Including me especially... 1.. no 2... NO make that 3 long weeks of leave and offs that i can finally enjoy at home... No army, no worries, no disturbances.. Well only the small slight occasional irritance..

    Sooo... Hows everybody's holidays?? Wonder if everything is doin well for u guys out there... to my poly frens that are so called having their hols right now, Cheer up!! I noe that you guys got many projects and work to do during the hols but cmon!! Its the frigging hols... Enjoy yourself at least once???

    Sighz... Been awhile since i last saw my old JC frens especially JIESHUN,... Cmon man... make a proper date lahz... Lets all go out, the 4 of us, and chill out somewhere..

    Btw... Do u guys noe that when cats fight at night, they will yowl and 'scream'?? It kinda sounds like a baby crying but only for a short while... Freaking scary...

    Anyway... been spending most of my dammm time watching shows, dramas... MAny many stupid stuff... Tooooo much movies to clear... hahah... Alrighty.. Gotta go liao.. Need to buy new jeans and clear away my old stock thru the LEvis promo... BB...

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