So Cold....
The final chapter of army has finally been reached.. The days of it has finally come to an end.. After slogging for 2 years.. Its finally ending.. Yet, empty feelings still pound at my heart, demanding a release... What is the cause of it... I really can't say..
Going through some bad times in life... Somehow, I juz need to fins something to release me.. But I can't find a way to do it.. I really can't... Every night, every day, this wave of uneasiness just sweeps into my life.. Making it hard to breathe and think... Times when i looked towards my bad habits to give me a respite did not help... Drinking was juz a waste of resources and drunkness.. Why is it that my heart feels unanswered by life itself? What is the cause of all these...
I just wan this feelings to disappear.. To be released from their burdens...The future holds great uncertainty for me.. The pressure is slowly mounting up on me.. Its time for my generation to step up and soon take control of our own lives.. No more depending on others, no more mistakes to be made.. Its juz that straight narrow, treacherous road that we muz tip toe jus to stay on it...
Just watched an anime called CODE GEAUSS.. All about this guy, who wanted to make a world full of tumoil, into a better world.. But in order to do so, he has too conquer the whole whole, so as to unite all hatred against him, and letting his best friend kill him, for the sake of the greater good in the world.. Well, the world did change for the better, whilst the main character, ended up the unwelcomed and hated saviour... I guess i can understand his vision and his will.. BUt it is too much too bear for me... The fate of my own life lies on my shoulder and already I m feeling the burden on me...
I dunno how i can save myself from falling further into oblivion.. EMO is too minor a word to be used in regarding me, but too serious a word to cause great problems.. I guess I really do have many masks.. Guesss it has become a permanent feature on me that I dunno, who is the real me..
Can Anyone Save Me? Am I The Only One Left?